sth new :)

assalamualaikum and morning :) have a nice day. .okay, pagi ni rasa macam nak start sth yg baru. .taktau kenapa.. maybe sebab dah tak suka cara hidup sebelum sebelum ni. apa yg jadi between zainul and me, hm, dah jadi masa lampau. past. kalau nak ikut rasa hati, banyak sangat tak puas hati dengan dia, why relationship tu boleh berubah tiba tiba, in a blink of eye..phew, mula mula memang tak boleh terima..i love him much, so much. .tak pernah rasa nak pisah even banyak kali gaduh, banyak kali ada problem, kita hidup sama sama , settle masalah pun sama sama, sepatutnya.. tapi, ni yg zainul nak, pasrah. .what i could ever do now, just praying for us. us. .ada yg kata, ''takpayahlah yaya tengok dia lagi, doa pun takpayah, you can find sb better than him'' ...dengan nangisnya reply '' its okay, doa dia berubah,jadi lebih baik, and be my husband one nice day:) aku dah all out untuk dia, hes the first and the last one'' ..em, first and last, ,mungkin lepas ni dah tak perlu fikir macam tu, life must go on,,. i do have my own life. .zainul bukanlah sape sape yg boleh bagi kau kejayaan, yaya. .em so kena start balik hidup w/out dia.. bia lah dia nak hidup macamana. .past is past. . . be tough. berubah. :) much love, yaya.